It's hard.

I realized earlier that I haven't posted anything lately. I've been busy looking for a new job and trying to hang out with my friends and stay distracted. 

But tonight it so hard. I haven't heard from Andrew in over a week. He left August 9th and I've only gotten one letter since then. I know girls whose boyfriends are with Andrew at boot camp and those girls are getting letters on a pretty regular basis. So why haven't I? I ran out to the mailbox everyday this week just to be crushed when there was nothing for me from my recruit. Not hearing from him makes it really hard to stay positive and act like I'm okay. 

I spent all day in bed crying. I'm so miserable without him and I really need a letter to help me get through this but I guess I don't have one coming. All I can do is cry and cry and cry.

It's another one of those days when I'm missing Andrew more then normal and functioning on a normal level seems nearly impossible. I just want to curl up and cry somewhere. And it's not just because I miss him. 

I decided to quit my job. I was so miserable there. It wasn't worth crying ever single night that I got off of work. Actually I'm still a little undecided about work. I can't make up my mind. If he was here it would be easier. He would sit and talk to me about it. He would give me the pros and cons of quitting and help me make my mind up. He always gave me great advice and I feel a little lost without him.

I already have a hard job. Being a Marine's girlfriend is one of the hardest jobs any girl can have. I don't need another one.

Semper Fi!

First Letter!

So I've survived 11 days without Andrew and I finally got my first letter! (: It's short and simple but I understand the recruits don't get much time to write. I've written him every single day and I finally sent them all yesterday after his mom got the form with his address on it. I sent him another letter today before I got his to me so now I'm already working on one to send him first thing in the morning! 

It makes me sad though. I want him here with me. Not 352 miles away writing me letters. I want to hear his voice, not imagine it in my head. I want to be held in his arms and feel my world start spinning again. But it's all a part of being a Marine girlfriend. It can be hard sometimes. But I know Andrew loves me, so I know I can stick it out. He's worth every single tear <3 I'm happy to have heard from him at all.

My boyfriend is a Marine. What does yours do again?

Let's meet each other hmm?

I guess I should start this by telling you more about myself and my Marine.

I am Melissa. I'm 18. I've recently graduated high school. I currently work as a CNA and I am hoping to go to school to become an EMT and an RN. My Marine recruit's name is Andrew. He's 21. He just left for boot camp August 9th. We've been dating for a little over 7 months. This is the longest we will ever have been separated. 

I'm creating this blog as a place to vent and talk about my feelings. I miss Andrew so much and sometimes the people close to me simply don't understand. 

Tonight is one of those nights I miss him even more then I normally do and sleeping is difficult. One of the hardest things to adjust to has been sleeping alone. I wake up some days and automatically reach for him only to remember he isn't there. It's hard and heart-breaking.

But I guess some one has to accept the job. That's where the USMC girlfriends step in.                              "We sleep alone so that you don't have to."